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February 2011

Why I blog

What is blogging to me?

Most people who were around when it began know blog is short for web-log. 
  • Web -- the world wide web, defined by the HTTP protocol, a medium for computerized transport of semi-structured information, related to weave, from Old German
  • Log -- a piece of a tree, then the act of writing onto one as ships used wooden logs as a medium of tracking progress, onomatopoeically from Greek logos for "word, speech, discourse, reason"
Etymologies adapted & paraphrased from http://www.etymonline.com.

While having a meditative conversation today with my best friend, I realized that I blogged long before I got on the Internet. The essence of blogging is sharing words in a thoughtful social medium, initially as monologue, but potentially as conversation.  I shared this kind of space in my friendships with certain people over the years; sometimes it was in person, on the phone, in email, on group listservs, and on websites.  Or, through books.

It is always a special space when a friend could give me a prompt like, "So, what's been up with you?" and indulge me a thoughtful, perhaps long-winded answer, without judgment or interjection.  And then ease into conversation with me about it. 

This is the essence of blogging to me -- the holding and usage of this monologue-initiated and subsequently conversational space.  It may happen on a blog website, or in any medium in which such mode of communication is possible, which includes everything from books to tweets. To me Facebook and Twitter status updates are a form of blogging,   and not actually very good because you don't actually know for sure that anyone is really listening...

So I think blogging is actually a very good term for a whole range of discursive spaces as it reflects their simultaneously socially interconnected and verbal nature.  

Why do I blog?

I blog to:
- meditatively begin to understand my world, to experience it and extend it through the lens of what it becomes when verbalized and shared
- share and extend my meditation through its verbal product with an audience, whether it is one person on the other end of the phone, or hundreds or thousands of people on the web
- experience the engagement of that audience, to open myself to the impact of that attention on my own appreciation of my experience
- evolve myself, and allow my evolution to occur in part in a shared space in the faith that will accelerate my own process and enrich others in some way

It's a virtuous feedback cycle wherein experience and meditation give rise to the initial communication, which is received as an experiential meditation by an audience, and then a greater meaning evolves as the message is returned, deepened through the prism of others' experience.  

How can I blog better?

It's claimed by some communication experts that human communication is 93% non-verbal; only 7% of the total message you convey in in the words you actually say.  The rest is voice tone, body language, and context, including the emotional, intellectual, and social state of those participating.  So, approximately, words are essentially none of the real message communicated.  If this is so, how can there be any hope of blogging really working for the aims I articulated above?  

I realize now that having a real audience, even if only one person, truly matters.  As a medium of social meditation, the integrity of the experience breaks down if no one is really listening, with their whole self.  A million people mostly listening isn't the same as, or to my mind, as useful as, one person who knows me or is willing to open themselves to knowing me more deeply, who is really, fully listening with their whole self.  

Now sometimes, perhaps oftentimes, that one person can simply be me, at a later time.  I'll post a tweet or status update as a way of making a note for myself.  But, for this to work, I regularly need to cycle back through my posts and be really present with them from the vantage point of a 'different self', to be in a perspective-taking and meditative-listening mode, not simply re-reading prior posts without this deeper intent.   

Better still is to have someone tuned-in, real-time.  Although the window of what constitutes "real-time" is different for a full-length book (years to decades), long-form article for publication (months to years), blog post (two-three days), an FB status update (a day and a half) a tweet (a few hours). This immediacy is enormously important to the efficacy of blogging as a medium of collaborative co-evolution, which is what I aim for it to be.

I invite all who read this to meet me here, at this depth of real engagement, sharing and listening with one another  We have the opportunity to more fully realize our full selves here and truly need each other to seize it.

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Comments on yoga celebrity and true refuge

There was a Newsweek piece today cheekily entitled Bow Down to the Yoga Teacher that brought up some interesting thoughts for me on why people do just that.

Posted three comments about it, two to YogaDork.com where I first heard about it – 
http://www.yogadork.com/news/newsweek-on-fame-monsters-and-yoga-groupies/comment-page-1/#comment-18394

And then one directly on the Newsweek site – 
http://www.newsweek.com/2011/02/20/bow-down-to-the-yoga-teacher.html

Here were my key points. From YogaDork comment:

My greatest experience of learning with it has been through my principle yoga teacher — Amma. She’s a very public figure — over 50,000 people have come to see her at a time when she tours in India. She’s started hundreds of universities, hospitals, orphanages, housing programs, has toured the world for decades giving her particular message of realizing peace through a life of Love and Service. No matter how many people come to her, she always gives each person a heartfelt, personal audience and hug. And she’s humble enough to continue in her own spiritual practices daily and not make any claims of perfection — yet, and here’s the tricky part for me — she allows others who wish to worship her as the Goddess to do so.

So one point is that fame and celebrity for yogis, and the deeply egoistic, dualistic relationships that can arise from it are not just a Western phenomenon. They’re the product of two things that can arise anywhere:

1) a teacher really does have something special to offer

2) many who seek need answers so badly that they’re willing to believe that because a teacher has something special to offer, that they are above the ordinary human experience of ego, confusion, despair, and healing

The problems come when teachers themselves begin to believe the second item — that they are above the universality of suffering. That’s a recipe for megalomania.

For me, Amma demonstrates it’s possible to allow yourself to be an object of devotion or worship from a place of real humility, and that there can be real good in this for those doing the worshipping.

Isn’t it better they have their idealization of you to hold on to if they need it, rather than nothing at all? The state of woundedness and fearfulness that would make a person cling so tightly to an ideal of a teacher is a temporary condition, and it offers a safe place, a refuge in which to heal. Many people need that, and don’t have it within themselves or in their previous ideas about the divine.

This is the role of a sat-guru, and my belief is that there’s nothing wrong with it, so long as the guru encourages their followers to look beyond the duality of disciple-guru context when they are ready.

Amma’s teaching to her followers is — learn to see Amma in everyone — but she recognizes that many people’s karma doesn’t allow them to see and embrace that for some time on their journey, and allows for that too.

 
And from Newsweek comment:

It's easy and I believe good to poke some fun at overblown egos, and to admonish teachers against megalomania.

It's also a very interesting thing to me to ask, why do people set up others as Gods? What's going on with a person that they'd need to do that? And what's the good in it? Since this pattern is at the root of all religion -- setting someone up as a God -- and it's been going on since time immemorial, what need is it fulfilling?  

My take is that people need refuge, a safe place to heal from the otherwise overwhelming hurt and confusion which life brings. And that there's nothing wrong in needing that, and in taking refuge where you are called to take it -- whether in a God, religion, teacher or practice. For many, these may be better refuges than the alternatives our society often encourages -- consumerism, addictions, and other things that function more as temporary escape than true refuge.  
   

To me, however you do it, the trick is, to know you're taking refuge -- which a good teacher can help you see -- and to know that this can be a temporary stage in your evolution, that it is possible for you to heal and to grow strong enough, that you can help others through the hard things and confusions in their lives too.  


And one more comment on YogaDork:

I've found it goes in waves for me .  There's an ebb and flow of generosity and self-care, of offering to myself that I may be of service to others.  

In that vein of holding seeming opposites at once, I recognize there's a difference to me between being a celebrity and seeking celebrity, but not so big... Fame and humility can be at odds, both for those receiving adulation and those giving.    But they aren't necessarily.  

Similarly, seeking fame and being humble are not always at odds  -- if the seeking is part of an honest self-estimation that you may have a better message to offer the world than many of the messages that currently have a wide platform, then you need to honor that conviction ...

Human beings are the most social animal.  It's certainly part of my humanity to seek social status, the approval of others, and fame.  It's part of my humanity to be attracted to and give approval to others' status and fame, and to take refuge in a great personality....  To me, it's just part of the karma we're all working out, a part of the journey.

I'm a bit dubious of anyone claiming to be absolutely beyond these things or willing to criticize others they don't really know on a public stage for pursuing celebrity, and especially those who do so without acknowledging they're building their own celebrity in doing so.... 

I think we all 'know' yoga to varying degrees, if yoga is a state of Union and  transcendence of the ordinary dualistic, subject-object, Us-Them, Me-Not Me relationship with the world.  There are just those who don't know they know (young children), those who do (realized yogis who may or may not call themselves 'realized yogis'), and those who think they know more than they do (probably most all of us who read, write, and 'do' yoga :-)...

To me, humility is being true to as much as you really are, acknowledging both your flawed, limited, long-suffering humanity at the same time as your creative, eternal, joyous divinity.   They are all One thing....  

That's my yoga.  

Though it's not always my first instinct,  I like to believe it has room in it to love and respect others, wherever they are in their journey.

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On Objectification and Yoga

I’ve been meditating recently on how better to describe the type of yoga I practice – and its relation to all the other ‘yoga’ out there.  An intuition has been evolving and recently distilled itself into this:

 

My yoga is decidedly not the objectification of yoga.  In fact, it can encompass all yoga that moves away from the objectification process – whether it is aimed at the body, the spirit, money, relationships, society, truth, the compulsion to objectify is itself perhaps our greatest ailment.  

 

Words are inherently objectifying, as is all representation -- including images, videos, and other recordings, whether mental or in other media.  There is a direct experience of one’s own Truth, of Life filled with Joy and Creativity, Sorrow and Stuckness,  the real Truth of our human grandeur and frailty that is at the heart of yoga.

 

A reverence for this full, direct experience of the deepest Truth is what my personal path of yoga means to me.   People on any path can share in this reverence for that deep Truth– not just self-avowed yogis.   I recognize it instantly when I see it in myself and others – it’s the very best thing.  Young children almost always have it.

 

The objectification of yoga is an inevitable consequence of 3000 years of scientific and philosophical discourse which began with Greek Atomists, crystallized by Aristotle, as well as the Indian Vaisheshika philosophers, who articulated an approach that objectifies the entire universe.  It turns out this view is immensely useful for the manipulation of the physical world, and thus underpins much of modern science, technology and economy.  It is, however, not the whole story. 

 

The assertion of the objectifying view is that there are things and voids in between them.  This makes Me different than You, and lets me use you, whether you are a person, corporation, animal, or other thing.   So we objectify one another – economically (through buying and selling ourselves without regard for each other’s true well-being), socially (through status-seeking, in-group formation, and ostracism whether forced or suggested), physically (through fantasy and violence, perpetrated often first and most on ourselves) -- in myriad ways.

 

The assertion of the yogic view is that there is but one Thing, a deep, interwoven Unity of which we are all apart.  All that ultimately separates us is our very own notion that we are apart, not reality itself, which is One.  In this view, I participate in a Universal field that is Loving, Respectful, Hopeful, Creative, Playful, Sexy, Beautiful, True.  

 

When I am awake to this reality, what comes clear is the absurdity of thinking everything is cut off from everything else, that I can succeed with the approach of objectifying anyone or anything for very long.    It just doesn’t. 

 

Objectification is a very useful intellectual tool for mathematical analysis of relationships in a chemical laboratory or an economic transaction, but it is not the whole story.  Yoga teaches me to embrace and include, but never stop, with the objectified version of reality.

 

There’s always something Truer and deeper as well.   The practices of yoga are intended to awaken a bit more into that Truth.  My teacher, Sri Mata Amritanandamayi, has said, “It’s easy to wake up someone who is sleeping, but very difficult to wake up someone pretending to be asleep.”

 

I think we have, especially among the scientific and economic materialists in the Western mindset, taken objectification far too far, and in a sense, a big part of world politics and economy, and consequently, many people’s notions of personal security, are built upon it.   And we have pretended for too long to be asleep to this deeper truth of ourselves, of Life and the Universe.

 

It’s time to for me to assert that objectification is useful as an analytic technique, but only to a point.  As I do, I’m finding a deep happiness and passionate desire to be alive and of loving service to all Creation comes and stays when I acknowledge and embrace this Truth.  And that to me is the real point of all yoga.

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